My Name

My name's literal meaning is very straightforward. Derek means clan leader or leader of the clan. My last name means home, or ruler. So literally I should be a ruler or president or something of that sort. But I don't know if I really want to be a ruler or something like that. Of course being in charge is always fun, but if you do something wrong, it's all on your head, shoulders, knees, and toes. So I don't think I want to be a leader of too many people. How I got my name was whenever my parents said my name, I would laugh or get all exited. So they just named me Derek.
  
I am not my friends so I don't know how they think of me. But I want people to see my name and think of good things, not like druggie or retard. You have to make a pretty big impression on someone for them to just see your name and they automatically think of something. I kind of hope I do that, just in a good way.

I can relate to John Proctor about not wanting his name to be soiled in the town, people thinking about the devil and witches when they think of him. I know that I don't want people to think of the devil when they see my name. But what really bugs me is when you are accused of doing something wrong that never happened and then when people see you or your name, they think of the thing you did wrong even if it isn't true.

My name means a lot to me and I don't want anyone to think of it as unclean or stupid. It is like your title or what you are known by, it is a big part of your life. It's more important than people think.